When I was younger, I had big dreams for myself. I had loads of expectations, from my mom especially, so I worked hard at school to please her. I wouldn't say I was a straight-As student, but I gave my best.
Back in school, I was a hardcore feminist. I believed in equality between men and women. I was the captain of the chess team, and it made me feel good when I trashed guys during chess tournaments. I was the prefect, the nerd and the teacher's pet. I was brash and outspoken. I was moody and temperamental. Everyone knew I wanted to be a lawyer, although no one knew that I secretly wanted to be a flight attendant, and oh, a model!
Then I went to college. I was involved in every single society, from the editorial team of the college newsletter, down to ballroom dancing! Oh, I was also chosen to be a Miss INTI contestant haha! That was my very brief moment of fame, although I withdrew from it at the very last minute. I didn't fancy the idea of parading myself in front of a bunch of young, hormone-driven men. I was a dedicated law student. Heck, I even dreamt of having an office in KLCC!
I didn't know how I ended up applying for an airline job, and subsequently got the job. But things happened for a reason, I've been told, and I haven't looked back since.
Today, I sit in the comfort of my home writing this, and boy, am I lucky or what? I don't have to wake up early every morning, brave through traffic to get to the office, only to sit at my desk doing lots of reading, then brave through another traffic to get home, prepare dinner, go to bed, and repeat the same process again, five times a week. Don't get me wrong though, I'm not showing off or anything like that.
I'm just lucky, that's all, and I want to count my blessings. I am no longer a feminist. I have adopted and agreed with the idealogy that men and women can never be equal. There will always be some form of discriminations, but I'm ok with this. After all, God made men and women different, and I've decided to embrace this thought.
Today, I think that nothing gives me greater satisfaction than seeing the faces of the children that I teach. I hope to one day experience the joy of seeing the smiles on my children's face.
Until then, I got to get this whole wedding thing done with! Seven months to go...